Looking Forwards.

Flabbergasted. That’s the best word to describe my response to this package, delivered by hand, last weekend.

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It contains a stack of my own letters, written twenty years ago to a dear friend. Confiding, probably moaning a lot, grieving, figuring stuff out…at least that’s my best guess because I haven’t managed to take more than a cursory glance. I read two lines and felt dizzy. 1996 to 1998 took me from a failing PhD project, through a bereavement, to engagement, marriage, moving to Italy and my first pregnancy.

I hate reading back on my writing. It’s like hearing a recording of yourself, ugh.

Still, that stack is just sitting there. I’m not sure I want to look back? What would you do?IMG_5555 (2)

The break from making school lunches and the Mummy-Taxi service has gifted me lots of quiet moments to faff about with my camera.

Filling a vase with flowers from the garden is one of my greatest pleasures and the first Spring gatherings seem the most joyful of all. These small flowers don’t have a huge impact in the garden but, gosh, don’t they look lovely when you take a close look.

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This tiny jug belongs to Small Girl’s doll’s house. It hardly holds a drop of water but can accommodate a teeny weeny bouquet of forget-me-nots. Good things, small packages, a little silliness, big smiles.

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All that’s missing is a chick…IMG_5478 (2)She’s eyeing up that egg with a suspiciously greedy look.

Oooh, and this one too:IMG_5539 (2)

I didn’t spot the greenfly until just now!

I spent an evening happily churning out little baskets from Eleanora at Coastal Crochet’s lovely pattern. Small girl happily accepted the task of filling each basket with mini-eggs and then we used them to decorate our Easter Tree. It’s a bit wonky and things keep dropping off it with a thud. IMG_5568 (2)

But still, it has made me happy.IMG_5556 (2)

Prepare yourself now for the silliest, cutest picture this side of Easter…this put such a smile on my face…ta-daaah:

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The evenings have stretched and we’ve had glorious golden light streaming in. Our den, a miserable dark cave in winter time, has come back to life. This is the view from my desk if I swivel right. Everything seems lighter, brighter, a little bit easier.

It’s time to look forwards.

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Have I mentioned how much I love April?! I have? Can you blame me?

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20 thoughts on “Looking Forwards.

    1. Thank you Eleanora, they have been the hit of the season: I doled them out to any small visitors who passed our way and they made the perfect little gift. I’ll definitely make more next year. I think they would make gorgeous place settings too. A really brilliant little pattern!

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  1. I say read them. It is nice to know where you were at a specific time and how you got to where you are now. It is a history – and you can see how far you have come.

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  2. Glorious spring sunshine, beautiful. And lovely, lovely shelves of books, happy sigh. I wouldn’t like to read old letters I’d written either, I don’t like to look back too far. You could always stuff them into the bottom of the cupboard for a few decades. Love your Easter tree, I am now a bit sad that I didn’t make one. Hopefully the littlest boy will still be into it next year. Hope you have a lovely couple of days. CJ xx

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  3. Golly, that light! Golden indeed. Happy Easter, dear Lynda. x
    PS Do you know, I don’t think I would read those letters. Look forward is my motto. But my daughter disagrees and is cheering you on.

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    1. Thank you, Sam. Belated Happy Easter to you and your family. (I’ve been enjoying a break from screens!).The letters lie unopened thus far. I have a box in the attic that might have their name on it. (The box is labelled ‘Good Stuff/History’)

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  4. I love all the happy photos….what a happy Easter to have the kids around….I put out a bowl of jelly bean eggs and malt eggs….they were festive and of course a bouquet of tulips….and a little milk chocolate bunny for my sweetheart….LOL looks like you are having fun with the kids on break and I know you enjoyed the holiday…..love the sun shine….and the wall of books…..xxkat

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  5. As for the letters, I would address them my children for the hear and after…..I am sure they would enjoy reading about mums life all those years ago…..xx just my thought…kat


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